Jessie James Decker gets candid about her mental health.
The 34-year-old “should have known better” singer wrote a lengthy and emotional statement on Instagram on Thursday, revealing to her millions of followers that she has “been struggling” with anxiety and depression in recent years.
“It’s been up and down. There have been some really great, great moments, but also some pretty low lows,” she began. “The reason I want to share this is because I think I got to a place where I tried to hide my vulnerabilities, because if I always made everything look great, it would hide my internal struggles.”
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The country artist, who married former NFL player Eric Decker in 2013, went on to write that she has always felt that it is her “duty” to “always be that bubbly girl.”
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“I have a very blessed life with healthy children and an incredibly loving rock of a husband. But I have certainly struggled in recent years. My anxiety has gotten worse, my self-esteem, my confidence,” she wrote, noting that she “was struggling with some body image issues” and “probably always”.
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The Eric & Jessie star also wrote that she struggles with challenges she has faced over the years in her career, as well as a private family matter made public on Reddit that “to this day makes me collapse and cry.”
“I’m constantly being torn apart every day, which kills me a little bit every day and makes me wonder what my purpose is in this business and frankly makes me consider quitting everything and disappearing sometimes,” she wrote, adding that she canceled her tour after contracting COVID made her feel like she was “letting down so many people,” putting her “back into a depressive spiral.”
Decker noted that “it almost felt inauthentic not to share” what she’s been through, explaining, “I have such a beautiful life and so many blessings, but I’m still struggling and have to sit back and work on my mental health. I feel like sometimes I only try to post the good things, but I think being open and honest will also help me heal through this.”
“I know I’m not alone,” she concluded. “And I wanted to let you know that you’re not alone either. I work through it daily and navigate how to deal with it on a daily basis.’
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This isn’t the first time Decker has opened up about her struggles and how social media has impacted her mental health.
In July 2021, the “Tell You Enough” singer got candid in an emotional video posted to her Instagram story about body shaming online.
“I just want people to keep in mind that I’m a person, I’m a human, and your words hurt me. And I know I’m not perfect, but you point out my flaws about things I’m already insecure about, it already hurts me,” she said. “And it doesn’t feel right to be bullied, bullied, or torn apart.”
If you or someone you know needs mental health help, text “STRENGTH” to the Crisis Textline at 741-741 to be connected to a certified crisis counselor.